2022.6.7

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FKJ ‘s North American 2022 tour has started pre-sale, and by the way, a short video VINCENT “In The Making” has been released. I bought a ticket for the third show on October 6th, but I didn’t expect to see the live again after four years.


I was watching the WWDC session recently. The first developer version of iOS 16 is quite laggy, especially when using the astronomical series of live wallpapers, the earth is also relatively rough, and the accuracy of the normal map is not very good, compared to what I did for Metropolis before. The effect is simply a toy globe. I’m still looking forward to when a live wallpaper API will be opened, so that I can migrate Metropolis and Skyline, but even if there is, I will have become a certain engineer by then, not a state that can do personal projects. In addition, I tried the Stage Manager. At present, I can only say that it is better than nothing, because compared to the side by side multi-window mode, the 11-inch iPad does not provide more screen space to accommodate multiple windows even if extended scaling is enabled. On the desktop, it looks tasteless, and the current stage manager and springboard do not have the obvious separation of Samsung dex mode, which sometimes causes me to be confused about how to return to the window system of the stage manager, or how to use the stage manager. Close the window in the manager. In short, the requirements of the first beta version should not be too high, at least this year has some interesting things.


Yesterday, I called my mother and talked about the current situation, as well as my anxiety, some changes in coping, and my expectations in the changes. After listening to this my mom started expressing her skepticism, that is, she started thinking that if things were going to be difficult in the end, it would be some kind of unfavorable situation for me, or for them, and then through a kind of discouragement The tone explained to me. At the beginning, I laughed and said that there is nothing to say about things. There is nothing that can’t be done in a year or two. How can I think so far? Besides, I actually disagree with my parents on some things, so I don’t have the burden of their worries. , or even a state of happiness. But while I was talking, I started talking to myself, and finally I stopped talking at all. After hanging up the phone and slumped in the chair for a while, I knew what I was supposed to do was sleep, and when I woke up, I would regain the confidence to do what I wanted to do. But in that state, I just don’t want to do anything, like the feeling of powerlessness after being restricted by my parents when I was a child. Even if I want to rebel, I will doubt whether I have enough ability, so there is no way out, what is it? Not doing anything, just thinking about things in despair.

Anyway, I finally forced myself to fall asleep, and I didn’t think about it much today. But when I was on the phone with my mother just now, I heard her say that she didn’t let me do anything at the time, just expressed her concern, I just felt angry, why am I so easily dragged into a situation of self-doubt, why I am so old and still like a child, I was beaten down by my parents with a few words. Why can’t I let my thoughts make my own decisions and pursue my own happiness, instead of thinking about the opinions of the people around me when I do everything with my hands and feet? Why can’t I express my views and my emotions generously, even if others doubt, I can figure out what I really want, not what others want. Once upon a time when I was an undergraduate, I was able to patiently discuss with my parents to let them be on the same front as me and let me skip class, but now I am impatient, and I am either angry or let it go. Instead, I feel weak and regressive. , because patience is continuous communication, and no patience will solve the problem, if I still want to solve the problem. I can only hope to hurry up in July and get back into self-sufficiency, and then think about my expectations and the things I would need the courage to do to achieve them.

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