Gully in my heart

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The grass is bathed in the sun, and in the gentle wind and drizzle, it sways gracefully and grows freely.
Whether it is life or work, on our way of chasing our dreams and achieving our mission, like a grass, it is our heart’s desire.

However, things will not always move forward as we expected. If there is too much sunshine, it will become a scorching sun, if the gentle wind blows fiercely, it will become a squall, if there is too much drizzle, it will become a storm… There are many unexpected things Things appear frequently like bugs, the soil is not fertilized enough, the grass is malnourished; a big tree pops up next to it, blocking the sun; Maybe I won’t worry about these problems when I grow up, because I already have enough survivability, but before I grow up, I always need to solve these intractable diseases.

There are often two states when working and living. One is immersed in the passion and peace of completing one thing. And walking, the more you move forward, the more you feel full of spring and vitality; the other is getting lost in the numerous and complicated affairs, switching contexts constantly, and once you are overwhelmed, you will start to fall into an infinite cycle of depression In the end, I was overwhelmed by a trivial matter in life, so that I wept silently and screamed hoarsely.

Sometimes, I will think about how many unknowns are left in the road ahead, and count them, one, two, three, four… There are many more. That kind of feeling is like the countless roadblocks that God of Destiny has deliberately arranged on the long-distance running road. She stands by the side, looks at you, jumps up, jumps over one after another. If you don’t have enough strength, you fall heavily on the ground, and your head is bleeding. She will wait for you, wait for you to pack up your mood, and continue to jump to the next one. That feeling is not good.

Subjective feelings arise from the fluctuations in the heart, which is true for happiness and pain. If you become obsessed with some kind of lightning-like fluctuations in your heart, you will fall into the infinite “pursuit” of it; If you are unwilling, you will be afraid of losing when you get it. The pursuit is endless. Looking back and thinking about it again, in fact, those are just the gullies in our hearts that we imagined. There is no God, and there is no god of destiny. It is yourself who watches you fall and get up again, and it is you who watches you enter flow.

Only by learning to adapt to fluctuations can one feel inner peace. Although there is pain, one will not feel miserable, and although there is joy, one will not fall into waves.

When you are in a bad mood, you will feel that the whole world is against you, but the things you encounter are no different from what you usually experience. “There is nothing in the first place, where is the dust?” The world we see has personal subjective feelings added, so it becomes different. What you see with anger is an angry world, and what you see with peace is a peaceful world. Zen Buddhism mentions “seeing the nature”, that is, revealing the nature of the mind, which can be controlled subjectively. “Bodhi has no tree, and the mirror is not a stand.”

The real happiness lies in letting go, in adapting to it, feeling the pain at this moment without seeking relief, feeling the happiness at this moment without worrying about losing it. Accept those gaps in your heart and learn to live in peace with them.

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