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△ 313｜I was absent from the circumcision of my son
Obviously today’s title is a companion piece to yesterday ‘s “I Missed My Daughter’s Coming-of-Age Ceremony” . Yesterday may have been cut from a “true” story, so today’s title is obviously nonsense – that means I’m going to talk about something serious topic.
I have not been a gregarious guy since I was a child, so I prefer to observe how other people’s “groups” are formed and how they disintegrate. Of course, many times I act as a person who encourages internal disintegration. Some time ago, I was fortunate enough to observe “Auntie’s Holding Group” , and some holding groups were observed when I was in elementary school. Because the holding groups at that time were purer, they were more worthy of “samples”.
Generally speaking, many little boys wear a big, loose T-shirt in summer, and when they walk, they lift up the front of the T-shirt hanging from the crotch with their small hands-this group of children usually plays together during the summer vacation. Yes, because they all have a common “life experience” – circumcision.
Many people think that “cut one get one free” is a joke, in fact, this is really a publicity tool for circumcision during the summer vacation – bring your good brother to get circumcised together!
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The reason why the samples of “circumcised boys cuddling” were studied is because their huddles are formed very quickly and changeable, just like octopuses change color in the ocean, they will immediately change their body color according to the surrounding environment to confuse them. predator. If a boy group has only one boy in a baggy t-shirt, he will be ridiculed by the group himself, and the other boys will laugh at him for “cutting the dick”. Once the summer vacation goes on, there will be more and more circumcised boys, and then they will form a new group and start to ridicule the uncircumcised boys, thinking that they have not suffered the knife “Future Chicken” Chickens don’t grow up.” Of course, there is also an element of parental involution. Mysterious legends about “circumcision” have been circulating among parents, and parents who can’t bear the introversion will also take their children to undergo “circumcision”.
Generally speaking, about a month after the circumcision, these children will return to a lively state. At that time, the friendship established through “foreskin” would not collapse. They would even laugh at the newly added “circumcised” individuals, and ridicule those boys who had the same “circumcision” experience as themselves to release themselves. Malice that was once ridiculed.
This set of logic can even be applied to more things that happen to boys in groups – such as “school bullying”, “gender bullying”, “masturbation”, “homophobia” and so on.
For things that are not clearly right or wrong, the cognitions formed by children tend to be biased towards identifying themselves or denying the other party through the means of right and wrong. At this time, if the teacher intervenes and clearly defines the right and wrong of certain people or things, it will become the trigger for bullying. For example, if the teacher fails to correct the bullying of the “feminine” boy by the boy team in time, or even defines the existence of a “feminine” boy in the class as a mistake, then the student will suffer more serious bullying. Because teacher inaction and “definition” empowers bullying.
I was bullied by a junior high school girl in elementary school—or not bullying, because I didn’t take it seriously. She just humiliated me verbally – for example, when I came home and went upstairs, if I met her, she would definitely use some of the popular “harlequin” names and my last name to call me, such as “a security chief” “Commander of a certain Har” and so on. Later, seeing that I didn’t resist, the humiliation began to intensify, and even began to be physically humiliated. When I went upstairs, she took off my pants. Almost all the children around have suffered from her bullying.
Once again, she gave me “another name” in the corridor, which happened to be heard by my parents. When they got home, they asked me: Why didn’t they go back? Next time she calls me that again, she should fight back in the same way.
I didn’t explain, because I thought “the time has not come” – because I’m still discovering where her weakness is, after all she’s always used the same way to get some kind of pleasure, if we don’t fight her right Are you pregnant? Later, I found a “weak point” of hers, but this weakness is a bit too “cruel” to be discussed here. If you are interested, you can chat with me privately.
In short, I found her weakness, and gathered the children in the family home who had been humiliated by her, forming a “group”. The next time we encountered her humiliation, we all fought back in the same way. When she realized that she was being attacked by a group of people in the most vitriolic way, she was powerless to resist, until she no longer humiliated us, or even ignored our existence, I stopped the small team’s counterattack—— At that time I knew that if we continued, the identity of the perpetrator of the bullying would gradually shift to me.
Of course, I threatened the kids at that time: if we told our parents about our “fighting back”, we would all be beaten up – because it was so fucking dirty! It should not be understood by children.
I should have written a paid article for this paragraph, because it’s so dirty, and I could observe such a dark abyss as a child. And I don’t feel like I’m sorry for the girl because that’s the best way to stop her, she didn’t think her actions were wrong from start to finish, unless she was treated the same way.
So back to what I said at the beginning, a child’s hug is more pure, but it is an “embryo” in a sense, and what kind of monster it will develop into is actually from that period. Of course, when I look back on what I did to that junior high school girl, I was also breeding a freak, and the destruction brought about by that freak can be addicting. Seeing how it destroys others step by step is not a bad idea. Kind of “cool”. But I finally gave up because I just wanted her to stop humiliating me.
I don’t have a soft spot, so she’s always looking for my soft spot. Want to find a one-hit kill way to control me, because she tried to “violate” me, that is, let me give her pocket money. But I did have no money on me, so she used another way to humiliate me, saying I was a poor man with no prospects or something. If at this time, someone tells me that she has a fatal weakness in her body, which can make her slump, and even make her suffer all the punishment for causing harm to me, I believe that no one will resist such a temptation. Once the switch is turned on, This game of revenge will never stop.
So, fortunately, I finally moved, away from that horrible woman, the monster in her body won’t die because of my resistance, it’s just dormant, and when the next prey comes, it will definitely fight back viciously Go up and take revenge on the other side for all the humiliation and harm I received here.
In fact, that freak has been living in the darkest corner of my heart since the moment she bit me.
Some people faced him, so they were dragged into the dark abyss by him; some people talked to him and appeased it in a safe area that would not be critical; but most people castrated themselves, thinking that their hearts would not live in one end Terrible monsters, like “circumcision”, the wound is there, and the shape of the genitals has changed, but they will definitely deny it, not sure that they have completed the cognitive “circumcision”, in order not to let people Seeing that the shape of their genitals has changed, they will even “castrate” themselves.
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