I rarely think about what kind of life I should have in the future, especially in the details. When the day comes, it’s always time that pushes me towards the end. If I put the 365 days of the year on paper, each of my days is more like a random walk. In terms of probability, it is possible to throw a handful of sand into Mona Lisa. If it fails, sprinkle it again, but who has such good luck and such a long life? Therefore, life should need a direction, so that the pattern drawn will be beautiful.
My sense of direction has never been good, so I kept throwing sand. For example, when I ride a bicycle, I often ride the same route at the same speed, but the people and scenery I encounter change every time. If I ride a lot of times, I will always meet the people I want to meet. . I seem to be solving a math problem in a stupid way, but the hard truth is that I can’t exhaust all the time and paths.
I have been listening to classical music since this year. Recently, I heard Professor Zhou Haihong’s lecture by chance, which just solved my knot. I am very ignorant of music, just satisfying my auditory senses but not tasting it, I always feel ashamed. In fact, listening to music does not need to understand, because music is not like words that can express concrete or abstract concepts, but music can also be imagined and explained by synesthesia, which is an instinct that everyone has. Just like reading, everyone can have their own understanding, and the same is true for music.
Professor Zhou compares music to food, and classical music to wine. Different age groups have different preferences. With that in mind, my musical preferences have continued to change over the years. In middle school and the first half of college, I mainly listened to folk songs and Chinese pop, the second half of college and the first half of graduate students have been listening to The Beatles and Japanese pop, and the second half of graduate students have been listening to GLAY and European and American rock (representatives such as Metallica, Pink Floyd) , GNR, etc.), and at the beginning of this year I finally got access to classical music.
In this way, I haven’t listened to Chinese songs for many years. The melody and lyrics that I thought were so moving at first can no longer touch my heart. Pink Floyd and classical music, which I couldn’t listen to before, is now one of my favorites. A lot of times, the change is just a “try again” – what made me fall in love with Pink Floyd was The Reunion Concert on the recommended list, and what made me sink into classical music was the Canon and Gigure shuffled.
For me, music is an indispensable adjustment in my life – on the way to work in the morning, during the lunch break at noon, on the way to get off work in the evening, and when I get home in the evening, it is all music that accompanies me. It is because of tiredness, pain, sadness or happiness, because of being busy, that you need music, you need that favorite voice to soothe yourself.
Since I have to take the subway to work, what should I do when I go back and forth every day? The music in my ears isolates the noise in the carriage, and it has created an environment for reading books. The crowded people around are acting as supervisors. See if I can persevere in the end. It’s not long, but I can finally keep reading on my commute without switching to other apps. After escaping for so long, how many detours would it take to get back into the forest of books? Maybe you can buy that ticket by sacrificing a little physical pleasure.
I don’t like to recall the past very much, but I regret every time I recall it. What am I regretting, now I think about it. What I regret is the lack of passion and courage in life at a young age, what an irreparable regret. Although I don’t know how long I can live, in the next life, I will try all kinds of possibilities with passion and courage, so that those weak flowers in the spiritual field will not wither. This is also a kind of direction, although this The directions are so vague and unreal.
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