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Deviate from the original intention
In September, it’s fast or not, time flies and before you know it, the kid is going to run three times, counting all ten fingers and counting three rounds. When I planned to start a blog site a few years ago, I planned to record more of my life, take more photos and post them on the blog, and write according to my mood to leave my own footprints in the Internet world.
But things backfired. At that time, I was often active at the dinner table with my friends, at least there was no shortage of friends. But in recent years, except for the job, other things have changed. For those who have helped me, for those who have given me big pies, for those who care about me, (except for my family) it seems that there is no such kind of relationship with them anymore. A perfect fit of sentiment too. So there is less and less material and interesting things.
Whether it’s friendship or love
It seems that in real life, in recent years, I have been out of place and living in my own world. Apart from commuting normally, there are no parties, no dinners, and no mood to go out for a walk. The words between colleagues are basically work, and life and trivial matters are rarely mentioned.
why is this
Maybe it’s because of paranoia, maybe it’s the result of myself, the source and the pressure of life are too great, so I no longer dare to trust many people, and I no longer dare to touch all kinds of good things…Because I clearly know how capable I am, But my straightforwardness and innocence made me incompatible with many people, and my paranoia made me dare not touch gambling, cheating (flickering), getting something for nothing, etc. A series of things that allow me to live a better life than I am now.
I have always been afraid to lift the veil of being a “businessman”. There are too many friends around me who have given me opportunities, and sometimes I feel a little guilty. Such a part of people who really want to help me make me become a “businessman” “Businessman”, but because of his stubbornness and paranoia, he missed such an opportunity.
At the moment, I am not a person who easily trusts others. Maybe it is because of my age, and I don’t know what’s going on? I just want to maintain the current state of life, one person, one car, one family, maybe this is also good.
Lazier people are more likely to become entrepreneurs
I remember seeing such a sentence in a certain book a long time ago, and the kid is just not that kind of person. Many “capitalists” who have passed by are very optimistic about me because of my diligent work. If I can let go of the stubbornness in my heart, I should How wonderful, but I don’t want to be that kind of person; after tea and dinner, I often export this concept with my family: “One can get something without coming, and you can’t do business with your conscience for your own selfishness.” Fortunately, my family is more supportive of my idea, maybe this is also the idea of working families like me!
The circle of friends has been silent for a long time
Most of the former friends in the past are no longer in touch, and they have lost motivation for such “conspicuous” things in the circle of friends. There is an inexplicable sense of resistance and I don’t want some people to know my dynamics. The damn supreme heart is making trouble, Maybe a lot of friends with independent blogs are the same as the kid! If you can’t face it, choose to escape. This is also the reason why the news will be posted instantly on the self-built QQ. In the Internet world, I don’t know you and you don’t know me. The motivation for posting on Moments is much simpler. You don’t have to worry about others finding you or what others think about what this person thinks, says and does.
As far as the above is a temporary thought, whether it’s a spit or a random thought, I don’t know who to share with, who to confide these spicy chicken emotions, bloggers, please accept it, and don’t refute it. Because I wrote it many, many years later to laugh at myself.
“This guy had such a terrible idea at that time.” Ha ha ha ha.
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