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In fact, I never thought that there is actually an LGBTQ volunteer organization in this small inland city where I was born.
Although I know that LGBTQ is definitely distributed in every corner of the world, usually the organizations related to it are basically in the first-tier cities, or at least the provincial capitals.
The reason I’m looking for this organization is actually a bit realistic, I was on PEP after a high-risk exposure. Although every scientific literature I can find assures me that PEP treatment within 72 hours is very effective. But there are no absolutes in medicine, and I don’t know what the final result will be. So I need a spiritual sustenance and an organization that can help me in the event that happens.
While I was seeking help from LGBTQ organizations, a volunteer who delivered me PEP overnight to ensure I could receive PEP treatment within four hours of exposure talked to me about the embarrassment of LGBTQ organizations right now.
In my college days, LGBTQ organizations have actually sprung up. Although they first cooperated with medical institutions such as the CDC, they gradually began to cooperate with educational organizations, women’s organizations, and minors protection organizations. Back then, LGBTQ interventions for gays and lesbians could even be held on high school campuses, and I saw a lot of positive data. For example, because of the implementation of the homosexual intervention plan in Beijing, the incidence of AIDS, syphilis, hepatitis B and C among homosexuals has declined.
And 15 years after I graduated from college, LGBTQ organizations are actually no better off than the LGBTQ community itself. LGBTQ organizations can only choose to cooperate with CDC and become a tool for CDC to intervene in STD transmission among MSM populations. And other activities related to affirmative action, etc., LGBTQ organizations cannot be involved. Even, LGBTQ organizations cannot accept donations from overseas NGOs, governments or other institutions and individuals, otherwise a hat of “overseas anti-China forces” will be enough to destroy this LGBTQ organization.
The convener of this LGBTQ group is a very enthusiastic person who was very proactive in reaching out and establishing a personal connection with me when he learned that I was interested in them. And when he knew that I had returned to the city, he also warmly invited me to a small party he organized.
To be honest, my expectations for this little party were not that high at the time. First of all I’m not a very enthusiastic person, and secondly I don’t think there are many members of LGBTQ groups in this small city. And when I did get to the party, I found that I still set my expectations too high. Because there were only four other people in the whole party besides me. Two of them were members of the group, while the other two were their partners (or ex-partners). I don’t know what kind of expression to show at this time, maybe a smile is enough…
Although the first party ended in such a subtle embarrassment, I soon smelled the same kind of breath, so I slowly became warm with YH and Eleven.
Because I became familiar with them slowly, I also began to know the stories of this organization and its members.
I should be considered as someone in the LGBTQ community who has done a relatively good job in “self-identification”, because along the way I have met many very kind people, especially the courage given to me by a few girls, which allowed me to break through the confusion and confusion. But, while I am lucky, others are far less fortunate. Because of chatting with them, I realized how tiring it is to live as a sexual minority in this society. This kind of “tiredness” is not something I can do well enough to be decent enough, but whenever you want to actively face this society, those people will always press you into the mud so hard that you can’t breathe. Therefore, I also realized that so many of my peers have mental disorders or even mental illnesses.
I hate stigmatizing any disease, especially mental and psychiatric diseases. There is a sad and ridiculous mainstream cognition in society that these mental illnesses or mental illnesses are “made”… But in fact, any professional psychiatrist or psychotherapist will tell you that these illnesses are the same as Like the flu, everyone can get it. What’s so proud of laughing at the sick? What could be expressed other than showing ignorance and rudeness?
What I didn’t expect was that I would gradually choose to become a volunteer of this organization, although I don’t understand why I suddenly became enthusiastic when I was middle-aged.
It’s just that I feel that in the long dark night, someone held up the torch and encouraged everyone to move forward. They’re younger than me, and they’re still full of idealism… If it had been earlier, I might have laughed at them. But now, I feel that I should also hold up the torch, even if it only illuminates the small piece of land in front of me. But we know that because we are in darkness, this light is especially valuable.
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