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On April 21, I sent a WeChat message to the company leaders on the subway, telling them that I didn’t want to do it anymore, and I felt lighter immediately. After arriving at the company, the leader asked me to talk to me for a few words, but I just made it more firm that I wanted to run away, so the leader didn’t say anything to persuade me to stay.
On April 23rd, I officially sent a resignation letter to the company’s management. The content was written by ChatGPT, and I was too lazy to use my own brain. The CEO said that he wanted to talk to me after returning to Beijing after the festival, although I didn’t know that he wanted to paint for me. What kind of cake, but thanks to him for giving me an extra week of fishing time, a week before the holiday, I wrote handover documents one after another, and did some odd jobs that I am still interested in. It was very pleasant, no Thinking that because the time of the CEO’s coming to Beijing was pushed back again and again, I continued to live like this for another three weeks.
On May 23, the CEO finally came to the company and chatted for an hour. The CEO was talking about the business plan and vision. I could see that he was really excited about the future possibilities and confident in his own judgment. However, This has nothing to do with me. After the chat, I also chatted with the CFO, set a resignation date, and then got the resignation certificate in advance. If there is nothing else, I should not go to the company again in the future. Although the resignation date has not yet arrived, the matter of resignation has come to an end.
Resigning at this point, one of the starting points is that the company’s business direction is about to shift to a field that I am not interested in at all. Although the boss’s grand business vision sounds reasonable, I will undoubtedly only be able to do dirty work if I stay. I’ve done enough of the dirty work. I have had the experience of doing things that I don’t like or even hate a few times. I don’t want to experience that kind of pain again in a short time. I just left before the start of the new business, and I can leave cleanly; the second The starting point is that there are a lot of things to do in the new wave of AI brought by ChatGPT and Stable Diffusion. After resigning, I don’t have to worry about being bored, and some exploratory things I want to do are not supported by the company, so I simply leave and play by myself let’s play.
The idea of wanting to resign or not work has been there for a long time. After all, I am not the kind of person who can enjoy work. I used to be able to improve my skills and broaden my horizons through work. In recent years, even these basic pleasures have disappeared. As a person who volunteered to fill in the computer for the college entrance examination because he often went to Internet cafes to play in high school and found computers fun, this is unbearable. On the other hand, over the past three years, I have been strongly aware of my lack of ability to feel life and express my feelings clearly. These are not luxuries that only young literary and artistic people deserve, but a healthy ordinary person to fight against emptiness and despair. Necessities, I hope to improve on these issues, but in the current state, work will only aggravate my problems. Because I don’t know how to solve the really important problems or are afraid to face those problems, in recent years, I have used work more as an excuse to avoid problems and uncertainty. No matter what the problem is, I can justify it.” I know these issues are very important, but I can’t do anything about it because I’m so busy with work.” Then continue to procrastinate with peace of mind—this is not shameful, whether to face the problem is just a personal choice, I decided to give it a try.
I have lived by the rules for more than 30 years. Reflecting and trying to explore new paths may not end well, but I have nothing to find myself, nor do I want to completely break with the past paths. If there is no accident, I should still be I will live on my own professional ability. In the next short period of time, I will probably try to live a “no plan” life, try my best to do what I want to do and what I can do, wait for and embrace the changes that will happen naturally, and stop pretending to do it. Uncertainty about the future will come to an end once the plan is made.
Although I don’t have any clear plans for the life after resignation, but there will be some things I want to do. These things will make me feel happy and valuable. I should do them all, but I don’t care I can’t achieve the perfect result, and I don’t care when I reach it. Maybe I will be attracted to something else halfway through, or I will give up completely if I get bored. Maybe I will spend more energy than I originally expected. Everything is possible. It’s still the same sentence Well, I don’t want to make plans.
First of all, I want to live a healthy and relaxed life, ensure enough sleep, have a certain amount of exercise, have enough time for reading and entertainment, and keep in touch with the outside world through walking, going out and playing, etc., and maybe visit some of them from time to time friend. From my experience, a habit can be formed in about two weeks, and then it can be automated without much willpower, so I am confident that I can correct it relatively quickly. The bigger problem may be For the establishment of a sense of relaxation, I don’t have any good ideas at the moment, but I just think it may be helpful to play more, feel more, and try more things without specific goals.
Then I want to do some exploration and experimentation in programming and AI. In the short term, I should start with the language model to do some things, and then I don’t have any specific ideas. I may play other things as I like, such as learning a new language. , Develop RSS peripheral tools, write Emacs plug-ins… But the language model should be enough to play for a long time, and I am going to write a project to discuss the current problems and solutions for language model applications. Ten years after graduating, I still love my major, am still inspired by the spirit and stories of industry pioneers like the Model Railroad Tech Club, Homebrew Computer Club, and some of my most creative work (though not exactly Creativity) are all made with a playful mind when no one is in charge. I want to continue to play, create while playing, and play while creating, rather than being fed some boring business goals like a machine. To produce a pile of garbage.
As for when I plan to go back to work after taking a break, I can only say that I have no plan, no plan when I will go back to work, and no plan to stop working all the time, just let it go.
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