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It was finally decided to fly to the United States on August 8, more than ten days earlier than the original plan. I accidentally discovered that the fourth day after arriving in the United States was my 40th birthday. Back then, Moses also immigrated to another country to start his life at the age of 40 (a friend gave me a comment). What I have to admit is that this is a journey led by the God I believe in, just as God led me to leave the “local” Changsha to Hangzhou in 2006, and led my family to leave the residence in 2013 for 7 Hangzhou to Shanghai in 2009. After living in Shanghai for 9 years, our family set off again to start living in Los Angeles, USA. How small, stupid, and incompetent I am. If I only rely on my own thinking, ability, and resources to plan and plan my own path, I think it will not only be dark and chaotic, but also full of sorrow and burden. I have told my wife many times that if there is no God, a person like me, who is confused and with a mediocre IQ, “doesn’t know how he died.” I have absolutely no ability to know tomorrow’s road. Thank God for his guidance and protection. Immigrating to the United States, envied by some people, also confused some family members and friends. Perhaps it is because I majored in design and engaged in the Internet industry. Since my college days, I have been influenced by Europe and the United States. All along, I have longed for a free cultural and technological atmosphere in the United States. In the past, the United States was considered an ideal country. But in recent years, as I have learned more about human sin and God’s words, I have deeply felt that there is no ideal kingdom in this world. China does have all kinds of problems, but the US has more problems in other areas. There is no heaven on earth. Friends around me say that I am a person who likes challenges and adventures. In fact, I am a person who tends to be stable and stable, just like any other person. In the nine years of life in Shanghai, both living resources and relationships with church brothers and sisters, and workplace colleagues/friends have reached a stable and comfortable stage. On the whole, although there are still many external persecutions, it is always handy and easy to handle. It is a great struggle to leave the comfort of certainty and enter the challenge of the unknown. Dealing with long-distance separation from parents and sibling families is not easy either. My brother said that I am very handsome, but I am really not handsome, and I also have many concerns and reluctance, which he actually knows. The parents on both sides did not want us to leave in their hearts, but they expressed their support and blessings. Every time I see my parents, I feel their aging, but also their need for their children. Both physical and mental health require the care and companionship of children. Going to live in the United States is obviously about staying away from loved ones. What’s more, under the current Sino-US relations, returning to China is not an easy task. For many nights, these inner struggles kept me awake. Often sigh, how should I choose? In the process of processing and waiting for immigration, we often pray. But because the time span is too long, we are more tired in some stages. Thank God that, through the reminders of the elders of the faith, let our husband and wife return to the relationship with God again two months before leaving. Faced with such a difficult decision, we husband and wife (sometimes two children also participate together), pray together with one heart. In prayer, I entrusted my fears and worries about the unknown, and my deep, inseparable, and complicated feelings for my parents/brothers/relatives to the Lord. Especially in terms of emotional processing, if I only focus on the “people” level, I will inevitably fall into a dilemma of choice. Any choice will make me deeply remorse and ashamed, and I will not be able to get out of it. I must honestly come to the Lord to talk about my thoughts and motives, and also fully admit that as a human being, I am really limited and small, and I cannot know my future path. Whether I leave or stay, I accept and obey. Apply for EB1A from March 2021, and drive 1,200 kilometers to Changsha on the eve of “Silent Management” in Shanghai on May 9, 2022 (the purpose is to go to Guangzhou for an interview. At that time, Guangzhou did not accept visitors from Shanghai, and could only use “ Migrant workers returning to their hometown” as they went back to Changsha to wash off Shanghai’s itinerary records), smooth interviews in Guangzhou on June 13, and subsequent quick and smooth disposal of houses and cars in Shanghai, and even catching a plane at the last minute, It is God’s protection and care. In the process, we feel God’s protection. I asked my daughter Elim, do you think God is leading our family? She said, I see that your journey is going smoothly, and every time it is just right, I think God is leading. (Thanks to God’s protection for us to be successful, and I hope we can have the confidence to be grateful and praised even when things are not going well.) During the whole immigration process, I have received selfless help from many friends. Some introduced lawyers for me, some wrote letters of recommendation for me, some answered all aspects of American life, and some friends who had never met before patiently and confidently answered my questions and confusions, etc. I am a person who is indifferent to human relationships and advocates self-sufficiency. Over the past year, receiving the help and care of so many friends has really touched and touched me, and to a certain extent has broken my indifference and indifference to others. On the flight from Shanghai to Los Angeles on August 8, I started recording this piece during the long journey across the Pacific Ocean. Until today, nearly a month later, after completing the basic settling tasks such as renting a house, buying a car, and finding a school for the children, I finally completed this article. The human heart is always proud and always wants to show itself. I don’t want words to be the pride of achievement. If words can give others a little help or consolation, and if I can reflect on my own experience and reveal the glory of God, this is what I look forward to. In this struggle to achieve one’s own pride and display the glory of God, this article has been changed again and again. When the plane landed at the transit station in San Francisco, when I saw the bright moon in the sky from the window of the cabin, I felt extra peace in my heart. The moon is also the moon created by Jehovah.
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