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△ 192｜Midnight
To be precise, today’s content is not written in advance, and it was entered in the early morning of the day when it was scheduled to be released, after being woken up by the surroundings, I simply lay on my side in bed and entered it with a mobile phone.
In my last 500-day writing plan, I wrote in a lot of weird places and times. The ones that left a deep impression on me were some when I suddenly went for a walk downstairs from insomnia until 4:00 in the morning, and some when I suddenly woke up at 4:00 in the morning and simply got up, taking the sound of typing the keyboard as the background sound in a room that was not yet brightly lit. Although it is also four o’clock in the morning, but because of the needs of the story, one is the midnight when you can’t sleep, and the other is the morning when you wake up too early.
When I was a student, I always had an inexhaustible amount of energy, and I was not someone who was easily addicted to games. How to pass the precious time that I didn’t want to “waste”, I got into the habit of watching midnight movies. The beauty of the midnight movie is that the concept of time is subtly “disordered” when I fight against sleep.
Some time ago, I was sorting out the novels I wrote (dig) (pit), and I saw that in two novels with a time span of more than 5 years, “any similarities are purely coincidental” to write the subtlety of 4:00 in the morning. The point of time – it’s about the end of the day for some people and the beginning of it for some people. Electronic devices strictly adhere to their time division, and people can redefine it under the guise of anything. Alcohol can be used to paralyze, drugs can be used to change perception, sensuality can be cooled after sex, and pathology can be used. caused hallucinations.
A midnight movie is an illusion of time. Entering from 11 o’clock in the evening today and leaving at 2 o’clock in the morning tomorrow, no one will set too strong a sense of ritual for the number change in this time, but I have, and it is very strong. From today to tomorrow, from yesterday to today, I have experienced a client’s story in the midnight movie, they can be short, can be repeated, can be his life, sometimes an empire is built to fall . If you only use the two or three hours of the movie as the span, of course, you can’t see its beauty, but if you use the span of the midnight show in “two days”, it will be a little more fun.
However, I often make a very boring mistake in this “life-like” time illusion – I bought a train ticket for the early morning of this morning, and waited at the railway station until the early morning of tomorrow, only to realize that the original dutiful person The time rule will mercilessly add a day to yesterday’s day after zero. Seeing that familiar change, I could only take the train ticket from yesterday morning and realize that I was a fool at the train station this morning.
Whether it’s going to bed late or getting up early, or being woken up from sleep in the middle of the night, the chaos of time can’t deceive the original rules of time. When I typed this text on my phone, I suddenly realized that I had no plans and rules about sleep. Not even during the craziest periods of my time management, I wouldn’t talk about regulating my sleep. If I can’t sleep, I’ll get up and write something; if I get up too early, I’ll just “sneakly advance” the things planned for today.
I’m not a person who gets out of bed, probably because I found a way to counteract this feeling of boredom and helplessness – I will treat these “surprise extra” times as midnight movies at that time , simply use thinking, reading, and writing to offset all kinds of negative emotions caused by sleep interruption, just like the love that the hero can’t ask for in a movie, or the heroine who repeatedly misses and misunderstands the hero’s sincerity. They are An indispensable flaw in a complete story, but just right to advance the progress of the plot.
I should probably go back and find out what I wrote about insomnia until the wee hours, waking up early in the wee hours, or being interrupted in the wee hours of the wee hours. Maybe you can see between the lines of those articles, the negative emotions that you are offsetting in the moment. Because there is no way to vent those “getting out of bed”, or because you know it’s useless to vent so you don’t bother to vent, it will be transformed into some kind of behavior in words – laughter and swearing, swearing, gnashing of teeth, or “just him. Mom like this.”
It took almost an hour to code this article with my mobile phone, and the sleepiness of being woken up went further and further. However, the irritability that was simmering in my heart just now was offset by the article – looking back, if I hadn’t said “irritability” in the first half of the sentence, it seemed that I couldn’t see the original emotion at all.
Just like the end of a midnight movie, some stories end successfully, some leave regrets, some are rotten enough to make people angry, some people can’t let go for a long time, some are incoherent, and some are eloquent. . Some are like this article I’m writing now. It doesn’t have any theme or center. It counts wherever it is written, but it has offset the subtle emotions that have just popped up in my heart and interrupted its intention to continue this. This emotion searched the hippocampus for more similar boredom for me.
It’s like going out after a movie, pulling out my phone to check the time, it turns out it’s already today (tomorrow).
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