Original link: https://codechina.org/2022/10/no-life/
It has not been updated for a long time recently, and the previous article also gave a lot of reasons. I will continue to talk about the reasons today.
In fact, I have always wanted to keep this official account updated continuously. Everyone knows that daily updates will stabilize the reading volume, and the stable reading volume will bring me continuous rewards and stable income. But why can’t it be done?
In fact, before I completely gave up hope, I would open the backstage of the official account every day, trying to come up with a name and a topic. However, I can’t think of anything to write at all. On the one hand, of course, because of depression, a sense of powerlessness. On the other hand, it is actually the sequelae of depression and powerlessness, and there is no life.
Of course without life does not mean without life.
Rather, just live. I am woken up by an alarm clock every day, don’t know what to do, don’t want to make breakfast. Turn on the computer and browse social media, watch TV, watch movies, and get hungry, so I start to order takeout aimlessly. Sometimes, it takes an hour to choose.
The takeaway came, and it took a long time to get motivated to eat, watching TV while eating. There are many times, suddenly think I have dinner today? I don’t know, I don’t feel hungry, but I don’t remember what I ate.
It’s not that I don’t live, but I live in a daze, and I can’t figure out what the goal is and why I live.
Sometimes getting up early to test nucleic acid seems to be a goal. After the test, I lie down on the sofa, and it seems that I don’t have to do anything today.
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Of course, this kind of life has no sense, and there is no way to understand it.
So, I don’t know what to write.
In the past two days, I have begun to have a little life. Although I am closed in the community and cannot go out, I have begun to appreciate life.
I started to walk in the community step by step. I have lived here for a long time, but I have never thoroughly walked the entire community. The small supermarkets in the community have not been visited. Although this is because there is a wider world outside. But it was also because I had no life in the past few months, so I didn’t feel it.
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Although we all yearn for a better life, a freer and richer life. But the quality of life depends first on the state of mind, and then on the material. If you can face a better life more positively, it is a truly beautiful life.
Some time ago, the latest fried steamed bread slices came with stinky tofu, so when I went to the neighborhood supermarket yesterday, I bought another can of stinky tofu. It stinks and tastes so good. But the fried buns at home have already been eaten. I remembered that I also bought biscuits, so let’s have the biscuits with stinky tofu and salted duck eggs.
Surprisingly, it was delicious.
After finishing the nucleic acid process this morning, I walked home with my wife and saw that the Roujiamo in the community was being sold. I bought one and we ate it together. Still delicious. The three major breakfast stalls in the community, pancakes and fruits, egg-filled cakes and rolls, and Roujiamo, we have all checked in so far.
Who says life is not a journey? For better or worse, life goes on…
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